6th June 2012. Written by Manashantii

Manashantii’s website is written in the English of the United Kingdom.

I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I don’t take recreational drugs, I don’t self-mutilate, nor do I have an eating disorder. At age 11 I was encouraged to write by the late British Comedian named Spike Milligan, who visited and performed at my school. He spoke to me alone after he had read some of his works to my junior secondary school. During my secondary school years, three other school teachers told me to write my feelings down, because of this I was able to overcome and heal from my many traumatic experiences which began in childhood to adulthood.

I invented this method of therapeutic writing myself as a way to cope and heal from trauma and to record my psychological processes and my psychological progress. The stages of writing are the following:- Venting, Observing and thinking and reflecting, decision-making, motivating self, praying and thanking God, and asking myself questions; I do this to motivate myself.

When I feel overwhelming feelings, I write and cry if necessary. Writing saved my life. I was fortunate to discover therapeutic writing from age 11. Crying is unique as it can express the whole spectrum of emotions. Nothing heals more than crying, forgiveness, laughing, loving others, respecting yourself and self-reflection. Self-reflection of your feelings gives you insight to yourself. Knowing when to accept your circumstances and when to change helps you to forgive and makes you less emotionally oversensitive. Having healthy relationships also keeps you emotionally balanced. Managing healthy boundaries in relationships helps your emotional well-being.

Writing is one of my many healthy psychological outlets which helps me to de-stress. I use writing as a way to communicate with myself, to analyse, to think and as a result this increases my learning through expressive communication skills, learning through experience and learning through memory skills. Therapeutic writing helps me to examine myself, be in control of myself and helps me to be a master of my emotions. When it is necessary I use writing to ask myself questions and to challenge my perception, emotions, thoughts and insights and make changes in my life.

I am aware of my emotions, but I don’t allow myself to be continually led by my emotions. Emotions are like a thermometer that tells you what is going on in your biochemistry. Knowing how to manage my emotions means that I don’t have to let my emotions dominate me, manipulate me and bully me, neither do I have to be completely emotionally dead. I have emotional boundaries and I am a responsible parent to myself.

I can function independent of my feelings, I am emotionally mature, I am not emotionally intense and over-sensitive because I have healed and left the patterns of my childhood behind. Most people never leave the patterns of their inner child or never psychologically leave their childhood home as a result the way they psychologically function becomes affected because they are not able to be a responsible parent to themselves. No longer abusing self or others, no longer being a victim, no longer rescuing or trying to control others to change, but I realise that the only person I need to be responsible for is myself. Writing helps me to be emotionally independent with myself and have emotional boundaries with others. It is important to examine the way you parent yourself (or how you relate to yourself) and explore how others see you and treat you ; writing therapeutically and talking therapy is a good way to evaluate this.

My poems paint sensory dimensions of some of my emotional experiences. I write because I want to record my story, and it is also a creative and cathartic way of processing my feelings, my thoughts and my memories. Self-enquiry refines my understanding of the part I play in the process and this inspires innovation in my life.

My so called “poems” are really autobiographical writings and affirmations. I write stream of consciousness accidental poetry, and I express my thoughts and my feelings through Journal writing. I don’t rhyme, use metre, or imagery intentionally. I no longer use various Buddhist meditations as I write. I now use prayer and Bible study to inspire my writing.

I write expressively and experientially using my autodidact knowledge of poetry methods. At times I write reflectively and summarise.

My writing method is really effective for healing from traumatic life experiences.

At the first stage, I use writing as method for self listening, observing and connecting into my thoughts, my feelings, my breathing, my body and my instincts.

At the second stage, I use writing as a method for emotional processing and catharsis. As I process my emotions and my thoughts by expression through the arts I gain insight from my experiences. So at this stage I am venting and observing my psychological processes.

At the third stage I use writing as a guiding instrument for transforming my emotions and being resolution focused. I begin to understand my perception and I develop analytical skills as I observe and reflect. I also look at the opinions of the other people involved if necessary.

I believe that truthful self communication requires, self listening, (breathwork, physical and sensory awareness exercises) meditation when these are all combined together they become psychological sensors for examining mind and behaviour. I believe that there is always a mental space where inner-peace always exists within everyone, from this place of inner-peace and higher consciousness in my mind is where I listen and I write from. As I observe and I listen to my thought processes, I use this state of consciousness to guide me and ground myself.

I use writing to help me to explore the depths of my psychological dimensions. Writing helps me to inner-navigate and anchor my vision. I listen in order to psychologically receive the subliminal resonants that my consciousness reflects to me, I then amplify the breath-thought-feeling-sensation into word sounds. I then start to write down whatever thoughts come to my head, I call this the catharsis stage, because it is like a brain cleansing of my thoughts.

I re-read my work to myself. Then I reflect on how I have experienced what I have written. I then examine my perception of my written work and my state of mind and only re-edit where necessary. I avoid editing because I want the reader to experience my original thought, my feelings and my sensations. I only edit if there is a spelling mistake which must be corrected.

When reading the Holy Bible and during writing, I like to obey and listen to the voice of God, discerning His Wisdom, repenting and forgiving myself and others. I finish writing by ending with a word from the Holy Bible’s scriptures and a word of encouragement for myself or someone. I believe that a deep Spiritual, emotional and psychological relationship with God is as important as a healthy psychological connection with yourself and with others, because to a large extent it explains my strengths, how I relate to others and my relationship with God.

See also Reflective writing with prayer

Manashantii is currently seeking a publisher, recommendations and web links.

Manashantii is available for psychotherapy sessions, lecture presentations, tutoring and workshops in educational settings.

Contact me at info@manashantii.com

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